Anxiety

Today I sat outside reading the book "Truth Heals" and I found myself crying. I have so much pain locked inside. What is ironic is that I know I have to express it in order to release it, yet I feel guilt when I do. I feel shame and anxiety when I do talk about it. I feel shame because I don't want to hurt anyone else, particularly my family, when I share my truth. I feel anxiety for the same reason, but I also fear rejection. Will bringing all of this up make my mother love me less? I don't want to hurt her, my father, or anyone really... I just want to be free of this emotional baggage and heal.